And now aku dah boleh terima kenyataan, terima takdir. Ye, sikit-2 dah boleh. Dia punya hak. Dia punya hak nk fall in love with someone else. Kita tak boleh nk elak. Kita tak boleh nak halang. Macam abang aku slalu cakap "Kita hanya merancang, Allah yg menentukan" Yg penting kita ingat Allah sentiasa berikan yg terbaik pada kita. Kadang-2 tangan kita ni jadi gatal nak text bila perasaan rindu tu membuak-buak. So senang cerita, aku off phone cemtu je. Lega. Aman dunia. Sejuk hati ni :) Tersangat sangat lah lega sekarang. Kata orang, nak berubah tu senang. Tp nak kekalkan perubahan tu payah. Sama jugak macam move on. Move on tu senang, tapi nk kekalkan tu payah. Kadang-2 nak study pun jadi takde mood. Yeah, I'm strong girl okay. Who says that I'm weak? Who says? Who says?! Without you, I'm not stronger than before. To be honest, it was nice to meet you dear :) But seriously, Glad to see you are happy than before. "Think positive and you'll be okay" Yesss, aku dah fikir positif and I did it! I remember all the story we shared, and the promises we made just you and I. I remember all the laughter we shared and the wishes we made at the drain. Lol drain. Ahaha k.
Once again, to be honest, you've changed and I can't see the old you. Let me keep the old you in my memories. K k k next topic, esok result PMR dah nak keluar kan? Seeeee?! Sekejap je masa berlalu. Rasa macam baru semalam je aku ambil result. Aku ingat lagi, malam sebelum ambil result tu aku langsung tak boleh tidur. Nervous. Takut. Berdebar. Ketor. Semua ada. Yg aku boleh buat berdoa berdoa dan berdoa. Result tak mengecewakan. Bersyukur sebab SPM lagi penting. Bila kita nak kerja nanti, jarang orang tanya PMR dapat berapa. SPM tu memang wajib ah tanya. So, let's study smart and make our parents and teachers proud of us. One more thing, macam tak caya je tahun depan dah jadi calon SPM. Macam tipu je. mimpi je. Macam mimpi seram je ni. Am I dreaming? Am I building castle in the air? *tampar pipi sendiri* Ehh no Syaa, THIS IS REAAAAAAAAAL! So real.. You'll be SPM candidate next year, please be ready. To be honest, aku memang tak ready. Ye, langsung tak ready. Takut sangat. Kalau fikir pun, boleh buat aku jadi gila. Ishh ishh. Just keep calm and study :)
Tahun depan, maybe dah takde main-2 lagi dah. No more laptop time study. No more Twitter for a year. No more games Syaa. No more everything. *my heart is whispering me* Jangan sembang! Kalau nak berjaya, usaha lah!" Huuuu okay. Bekengnya hati aku marah aku. Ye hati ku sayang, saya cuba okay. Saya pun nak berjaya macam orang lain tu haaa. Dapat highest mark untuk satu subjek pun dah memadai. Cukup buat parents tersenyum pun dah cukup. Ehh panjang eh post? Tak panjang pun. Ni baru category pendek. Ehek. Kalau karangan SPM tu tetiba keluar soalan "Buat satu karangan tentang luahan hati awak" Okay mengarut. But seriously, kalau wujud karangan cemni, memang aku dapat fullmark kot. Yeah I'm good in expressing my feelings . Hihi. Okayyy gtg! Semoga tahun depan baik dari tahun ni. #2012TaughtMe jangan percaya dengan org yg baru kita kenal. Takut ada udang di sebalik maggie goreng.
Do you ever feel like breaking down? Do you ever feel out of place? Like somehow you just don't belong. And no one understands you. Do you ever wanna run away? Do you lock yourself in your room? With the radio on, turned up so loud that no one hears you're screaming. No you don't know what is like when nothing feels alright. You don't know what is like to be like me. To be hurt... To feel lost.. To be left out in the dark. To be kicked, when you're down. and feel like you've been pushed around. To be on the edge of breaking down. And no one's there to save you. No you don't know what is like so welcome to my life. This is my true life :)
p/s" I miss my friends already..... To be strong in progress.....
Keyboard off.
Xoxo, Syaa
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